Why ERMI Results Made Me Question Whether to Stay or Leave (And Why That Decision Took Time)
I expected direction. What I needed was space to listen.
When my ERMI results came back, a new question quietly appeared.
Not about numbers or species — but about whether staying made sense for me anymore.
I didn’t say it out loud at first. I just felt the weight of it.
I wanted the test to decide for me so I wouldn’t have to.
This didn’t mean I was being dramatic — it meant information was brushing up against safety.
Why ERMI Can Trigger Stay-or-Leave Thoughts
ERMI didn’t create doubt out of nowhere.
It gave shape to patterns my body had already been responding to, something I first recognized when learning what an ERMI test actually measures.
Data doesn’t invent fear — it often gives language to what’s already there.
This helped me see why the question felt so charged.
Why I Wanted the Numbers to Make the Decision
Deciding whether to stay or leave felt overwhelming.
I hoped ERMI would deliver a clear answer so I wouldn’t have to hold uncertainty myself.
Letting a report decide felt easier than trusting my timing.
This didn’t mean I was avoiding responsibility — it meant my nervous system was tired.
When ERMI Results Didn’t Match How Urgent the Decision Felt
My ERMI results didn’t scream anything definitive.
That ambiguity mirrored the disconnect I had already experienced when numbers didn’t align with sensation, something I wrote about in why my ERMI results didn’t match how my body felt.
The lack of a clear verdict made the choice feel heavier, not lighter.
This didn’t mean I was stuck — it meant the decision required more than data.
How Time Changed the Way I Held the Question
I noticed that the urge to decide softened as I spent more time with the information.
As ERMI results became more trustworthy to me over time, the pressure to act immediately eased, something I explored in why ERMI results felt more trustworthy over time.
Clarity didn’t arrive as an answer — it arrived as steadiness.
This allowed the question to exist without demanding an instant resolution.
Why ERMI Was Information, Not an Eviction Notice
At some point, I realized I had been treating ERMI like a command.
That habit echoed the way I once compared my scores to others, something I later recognized in why comparing ERMI scores made things harder.
The test wasn’t telling me to go — it was asking me to understand.
This distinction helped me slow the decision down to a human pace.
Questions I Had While Sitting With This Decision
Does ERMI tell you whether you should move?
In my experience, no. It informed my understanding, not my timing.
Is it normal to feel frozen after getting results?
Yes. That pause reflected how much the decision mattered to me.